[Reader-list] A Palestinian poet's account of the siege
Shikha Jhingan
medias at giasdl01.vsnl.net.in
Mon Apr 22 17:24:59 IST 2002
Lives in ruins
As Israeli forces pull out of the West Bank city of Ramallah, the truth
about what happened there is beginning to emerge. A distinguished
Palestinian poet describes living under siege
Zakaria Mohammed
Monday April 22, 2002
The Guardian
It was 4am when the Mirkava tank stopped outside our house. It sounded
like an earthquake. The time has come, I said to myself; they will
storm
into the house any minute. Should I get out of bed, put on my
clothes and
try to save my dears, or wait till they bang on the door? I didn't
want to
be hunted in my pyjamas and unshaved. But I was afraid that if I got up
and put on my clothes I would scare the children, who were sleeping
next
door with their mother, Salma - since the invasion they have been
unable
to sleep by themselves.
I decided to wait for the soldiers in my bed. I was not afraid for
myself:
the time of fear passed away 18 months ago, when I underwent surgery
for
cancer of the colon. I felt as though I had been granted extra time to
accomplish little things in my life.
I now play with this extra time without fear, but I worry about my
15-year-old son. They are arresting males between the ages of 15 and
50.
They humiliate and interrogate them and send them to prison. They are
hunting a whole generation, not the list of 100 or 200 so-called wanted
terrorists. I have tried to keep my son away from politics. Politics is
blood and prison for us. But I couldn't stop him from reaching the
age of
15. He is therefore threatened, although his face is very childlike, in
spite of the black line under his nose. I thought of persuading him to
shave to make him look younger, but I didn't because I've always
asked him
to take care of that young moustache. If I had asked him to shave it
would
have planted fear in his head.
The Mirkava left at 5.30am. The soldiers did not storm the house,
but they
might come back any time. I got out of bed at six and our small dog,
Kiwi,
followed me. Whenever he hears the sounds of tanks and bombs he hides
under the sofa or bed and urinates out of fear.
A friend phoned at 8.30 to tell us that the curfew would be lifted for
four hours today, starting at 9.30. The previous two times it had been
lifted at one in the afternoon. I had had to wake up Salma and the
kids,
because it is so hard to sleep at night.
We did not want to lose precious minutes. While my wife drove the
kids to
meet their friends, I set off on foot for the Khalil Alsakakimi
cultural
centre, 100 metres from my house. On the way I heard someone
shouting at
me in broken Arabic: "Where are you going?"
"I want to buy some food," I said.
I then saw a soldier emerging from behind Aziz Shasseen girls school.
"Go back," he said.
I went back without arguing, but my eyes caught a group of young men
kneeling, blindfolded and handcuffed, in the school playground. The
school
has become a temporary concentration centre. This explained the
tremendous
noise of tank and military vehicles around our house.
I took another route to the centre. It has been ravaged: the tanks have
destroyed the pavement and dug up the road. When I reached the once
beautiful building, I found that the doors had been blown off. Broken
glass covered the floor. Paintings hung off the walls or lay on the
ground. The office of the poet Mahmoud Darwish was vandalised. Books
and
manuscripts of his poems were strewn over the floor, with soldiers'
boot
prints stamped on them.
"Did they take anything?" I asked Manal, who works at the centre. "They
stole 5,000 shekels [more than £700] and we are trying to find out
if they
took anything else."
Alsakakimi was a distinguished Palestinian educator and writer. He was
imprisoned by the Ottoman authorities during the first world war and
was
hanged for protecting a Jewish friend in his house. Eighty-five years
later, the Israelis are paying back Alsakakimi's favour.
I continued walking into the city, to Al-Manarah Square, the centre
of the
tornado. I hardly recognised it. The tanks were present. The four pink
stone lions were the only survivors. I stood beside the northern
lion and
we looked together at the destruction of Alirsan, the street that
leads to
chairman Arafat's compound.
It was 2pm on my watch, but according to the lion it was half past
three.
This is probably the only lion in the world that wears a watch -
when the
artist completed his sketch for the sculpture it was half past three
and
he drew a watch on the lion's paw indicating the time. Later on they
sculpted the lion with the watch - not realising that it was the
artist's
joke.
All the city's institutions have been stoned and vandalised. All the
doors
are blown off; computers, hard disks and files stolen. People
believe this
destruction is a deliberate and systematic attempt to cripple the
foundation of our state to come.
I went to the office of a local radio station where I had got to know
Ahmad Hisham and the guard, Abu Hussein. When the Israelis arrived
on the
first day of the invasion it seems Abu Hussein tried to resist them and
was killed. Ahmad tried to escape by jumping out of the window, but
broke
his back. He is now paralysed. Everything in the office was burned. In
memory of my friends I collected a burned stapler and hole punch. On
the
table of an adjoining office I found Hisham's half-burned mug with a
Lipton tea label still in it.
Later, I met my wife in the city centre. We walked together, greeting
friends. They asked about those who were arrested or killed. We met
Vera,
my wife's colleague, who hugged Salma and cried with sorrow. She had
been
taken as a human shield to break in the houses in her neighbourhood.
She
was pushed around by at least 20 soldiers. Two of them were aiming
rifles
at her head. They arrested 20 young men and Vera felt responsible. We
tried to assure her that it wasn't her fault.
We also met Ali, an eight-year-old with special needs. As we were
leaving
he said: "Miss Salma, there are no cars on the streets." Ali is
obsessed
with old Beetles. He spends hours sitting on the fence of his house,
waiting for one to pass by. For 18 days, the cars have stopped passing.
We greeted lots of people. "Thank God you're safe," we called. Then
we saw
people running in panic. We hid behind the door of one of the shops. We
were later told that some kids threw stones at the soldiers, who in
return
threw tear-gas bombs.
From a distance, Walid greeted me. "Haven't they arrested you yet?" I
asked. I had not expected to see him - I thought he might have been
arrested or killed, or even blown himself up among them. I could never
forget the story that that young man had told me more than a year ago.
During the first intifada in the late 80s, when he was 10 years old,
the
Israeli border guards forced his father to kiss the buttocks of a
donkey.
"Either you die or you kiss the donkey's buttocks," they told him.
Walid
had to lift the tail and his father kissed under it.
We bought bread and batteries for the radio, then picked up the kids
and
returned home. We would not be able to leave the house for the next
four
or five days: Israeli snipers were stationed on rooftops all over the
city.
After 16 days of curfew, we needed to hang our laundry on the roof
to dry.
"I will go up," I told my wife. "No, they might shoot you. They won't
shoot women," she said. We checked all the windows from all
directions. We
could not see any soldiers or tanks. My wife went up, hung the
laundry and
returned safely. But we could still hear the sounds of explosions
continuously.
"Zakaria, come and look," my wife called; she was watching the tanks
through the window with the children. Before I got there I heard the
sound
of bullets. My wife and children were on the floor, terrified. A
soldier
had seen them and shot towards them: I don't think he meant to kill
them,
he wanted to scare them away from the windows, because they were
marching
about 50 blindfolded, handcuffed men in front of a tank, the soldiers
poking rifles into their backs. They were being taken to the
military camp
at the school. The soldiers did not want anyone to see this horrifying
scene.
At 8pm I received a phonecall from my friend, Mohamad.
"How are you, where are you?"
"I'm in Chairman Arafat's compound."
"Stop kidding," I said.
"I told you, I'm in the chairman's compound. I was bringing a
journalist
here when it was attacked, and now I'm under siege with the
president," he
said. "Listen, the battery is finishing. I just wanted to say it
will be
very tough and long. Take care of the children." The line went dead.
"What's going on? Is Mohamad under siege with the president?" Salma
asked
me. "We are all under siege with the president," I answered.
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