[Reader-list] Dear Prime Ministerji
rustam
rustam at cseindia.org
Thu Apr 25 19:03:21 IST 2002
Dear Prime Ministerji,
Ever since your delicately balanced mask fell off and
tumbled onto the sands of liberal Goa's beaches, I have
become terribly envious of you. Henceforth you need not
agonise over with what face will I go abroad. You have
found your face.
I need to find mine. Even though I have taken off my
mask.
Post 9/11, I notice that many are suffering from an
inexplicable neurological condition. Despite our best
efforts all our face muscles seem to be busy twitching
and giving our visage a lopsided twist to the right.
Maybe everything is tilting to the right. It's symptoms
have manifested themselves with ever more
ferociousness in India, since your loyal CM in Gujarat
has been trying hard to follow his Rajdharm as advised
by you. Did you notice the right tilt whenever your Israeli
counter part grins? And yes, Le Pain seems to be
spreading fast in Europe too.
Either I have lost my sense of balance or the world has.
Independent Indias supposedly rock solid twin towers of
democracy and secularism (at least thats what they
taught us in Kendriya Vidyalayas) are shaky. I am
nervous. So I solicit your help.
Since you and your ever so silent Home Minister have
found a simple, clean and surgical solution to the issue
of Hindu-Muslim coexistence, I am sure you will have an
equally effective and instant solution to my problem.
Having gained inspiration from you, I also decided to
unmask myself too. Horror of horrors
my psuedo-
secularist, liberal, Indian mask has given way to reveal
a
a
err
A ZINDU!
At this stage either you are with me or not.
Maybe its my paranoia about having to explain (in flat
fifteen seconds) to a trishul wielding angry Hindu mob, in
a riot situation, the complex and ancient history of the
origins of my 'muslim sounding' name. What with my
parents, a punjabi speaking Zoroastrian from Delhi for a
father and a Lahore born Bengali Hindu (Brahmin, if that
matters) mother, having literally and metaphorically
screwed it up for me.
Damn I wish there was something called Parsi
Brahmins! I would imminently qualify, and save my skin. I
hope you have the right post-riot relief camp planned for
difficult people like me. Thats of course if my fifteen-
second extempore discourse on Persian history had the
desired calming effect on the enraged trishul wielding
red-eyed mob.
PMji , maybe you can help figure out which half of me is
more patriotic. The unbearable Le Pain of not being
able to be part of your nationalist culture is killing me. My
folks from my fathers side were immigrants and
refugees from erstwhile Persia. I hope that they have
assimilated well into the Indian milieu and not caused
any increase in crime or become a security threat to this
peaceful land. And as for my dear maternal half, I am
sure you would be happy to know that I relish roshogullas
and admire Ma Durga statues every pooja.
But that doesnt still solve my problem of being a Zindu.
Being a privileged English speaking elite of this country,
I admit I dont have the true picture of real India. I also
know the idea of getting Star TV and Rajdeep Sardesai
to set the picture right for me, is best left to the
imagination. Your utterances of the recent past have left
me confused again. I thought I had my politics sorted out.
Nonetheless, I hazard to lay my confusion bare to your
more experienced self. Because at the end of the day I
have to resolve this crisis of suddenly realising that I am
a Zindu.
A Zindu who has contributed to the melting pot that is
India and who never ceases to be amazed and
fascinated by the diversity of thought and culture in India.
A Zindu who finds the romance of science fascinating
(with due apologies to your HRD Minister).
A Zindu who has learnt that most of Indias poor, given a
chance, are quite willing to do kar-sewa to build water
harvesting structures with the same zeal as your Sangh
Parivar would like them to build a Ram Mandir or a
Narmada Dam (remember your Home Ministers list of
three achievements the bomb, the Dam and Kargil?).
A Zindu who listens to Madonna (with due apologies to
your I&B Minister) on FM.
A Zindu who bangs his fist watching the Indian cricket
team muck it up at the last moment.
A Zindu who wonders why George Bush wants to label
the rest of as non terrorists.
PMji, even the Congress cares two hoots about people
like me. I will never benefit from their vote bank politics
or their politics of appeasement. I have no native place
and certainly dont have a good name. What do I do?
Now I want to share a little secret of mine with you. I dont
follow any organised religion, dont do any rituals, dont
attend any religious discourses, dont believe that I need
a priest in my life, dont believe that I am either
Zorastrian or Hindu. And guess what? I think I am still
normal, balanced, nose picking, thinking, sometimes
rational and sometimes likeable person. And if it means
anything to the cultural police that your supporters seem
to have become, I am a teetotaller, am not promiscuous.
Not because of any moral qualms, but because I dont
like the taste of whisky and rum and because I am too
lazy to chase women. And, yes I think women with short
hair and jeans are OK.
My apologies for being a troublesome non-measurable
variable in your equations. So what plans do you have
for me? Sending the mob after a psuedo-parsi with a
'muslim sounding' name would be a real waste of time. I
suggest we let the real vultures get me.
So while you nationalise, I need to rationalise.
In anticipation
A confused Zindu,
Rustam Vania
S/d
Dated: 25th April 2002
Place: New Delhi (my capital)
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