[Reader-list] Ballad of the soldier's wife: War and the widow by Amitava Kumar
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April 2003
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Ballad of the soldier's wife: War and the widow
by Amitava Kumar
BBC
Baghdad is bombed, 20 March 2003.
The news on the television is of the bombing in Baghdad. I came out
of the bedroom this morning and saw my wife watching the news with
tears in her eyes. My wife is five months pregnant and, in ways that
I can only imagine, she is aware of just how much life is precious
and also vulnerable. And yet, I know that she and I, sitting in a
suburban house in America, are shielded from the real news of the war
that is being waged in our name. There was a retired colonel of the
US Marine Corps on CNN last night; he smiled, and even chuckled, as
he described the bombs falling on Iraq. A brave woman called in - the
show was Larry King Live - and said that she found the colonel's
behaviour obscene. We are watching the bared fangs of the killers.
Not one of the reports have described what has happened so far to the
innocent men and women and children who deserved neither Saddam
Hussein nor George W Bush.
There is much that is hidden from us, and it makes us feel isolated
and helpless.
I would like to see the Iraqi women on television. We should know
what a pregnant woman in Baghdad was feeling when the bombs were
dropping around her. That must have been the thought, I decided for
myself, that was making my wife cry. Once I started thinking of that,
it occurred to me that I would like to know what the thoughts were of
the wives and girlfriends of the American and British soldiers who
have died.
I have no experience of war but I have met many widows. Today, as I
watch the strangely disembodied spectacle of war on my screen, smoke
rising in surreal shades in a landscape devoid of all human presence,
I return to the memories of my meetings.
News
In a village called Kukurwar, about three hours' drive from my
hometown Patna, I met Munni Devi, the widow of Sepoy Hardeo Prasad
who was killed in Batalik during the Kargil war. Hardeo was a soldier
in the 1 Bihar Regiment and his wife showed me his large, framed
picture taken when he was a part of the United Nations Peacekeeping
Force in Somalia. He was a tall, well-built man with dark skin and a
light moustache, and in the photograph he wore the blue UN cap and a
blue turtleneck under his camouflage jacket. Behind him was the
Somalian photo studio's painted backdrop. It showed a garden and a
house with a TV aerial and, further in the distance, a row of
mountain peaks on which the artist had added a layer of white snow.
Next to this picture was another glass frame with a one dollar bill
pasted inside it. Hardeo had brought the dollar note back with him
from Somalia in 1994.
Women would comment that she had got a house and a television after
her husband died
Munni and I were sitting in the small brick house that was built with
the compensation money that the government had given her. The room
was not very large, it had just enough space for four chairs. There
was a doorway to my right and we could hear Hindi songs being played
on a loudspeaker in the distance. Now and then, I could glimpse a hen
walking outside with five or six tiny chicks that had been coloured a
bright green by the owner.
It was a winter morning and Munni, slight and barefoot, with only a
thick shawl wrapped over her sari, continued to shiver as she spoke
to me. When her hand shook, I would look away, concentrating my gaze
at the picture of a smiling child in the Magadh Automobile calendar
hanging on the wall behind her head.
Munni was 28 years old. She had three children, two daughters and a
little son who was six months old when his father died. Her education
had stopped at high school. At my request, Munni began to tell me
about the different places where her husband had served with the
army. First it was northeast India, mostly Assam, and then Somalia,
before he was sent to Kashmir from where he had returned with some
saffron and dreamed of trading in it. (Hardeo had begun to say to
Munni, "Money is the only VIP". Munni looked up at me when she used
the English term 'VIP'.) Hardeo left home for Kargil on 21 May 1999
at the conclusion of a two-month leave.
He was dead less than a month later. While he had been home, Munni
said, he did not do much. She said, "He would listen to the radio". I
suddenly remembered that the 1 Bihar Regiment had been involved in
the war from the start: the first army casualty on the Indian side
had been Major Saravanan who had been killed on 29 May at Point 4268
- and his body was among the last to be recovered in the war when his
regiment captured the hill, on the night of 6 July, where he had died
months earlier. While Munni and I talked, Hardeo's old father came
and sat in the room. He did not say anything to me, and several
minutes later, when I looked at him, I could not decide if his eyes
were old and watery or indeed he was crying.
Munni said that they would listen to the radio all the time to get
news of the war going on in Kargil, and it was through the news
bulletin that they first heard of Hardeo's death. There was some
confusion, however, because the radio had mentioned the wrong
village, even though it had got the name and the regiment right.
Then, the sub-divisional magistrate came and gave her the news in
person. Munni had been sitting outside her hut. The brick house, she
reminded me, had not yet been built. The officer said, "Is this
Hardeo Prasad's house? He has been martyred".
Munni said, "I had been unhappy for the previous day or two. I had
been crying for an hour. I was not surprised when the man came. I did
not move from where I had been sitting outside the house".
At night, at two in the morning, soldiers in an army truck brought
Hardeo's body wrapped in the national flag. The body, Munni said, had
turned completely black, and, as if putting a half-question to me,
she said, "The enemy had used some poisonous substance, perhaps".
Munni said that the district officials had said to her that they
would have to wait till Bihar's chief minister, Rabri Devi, came to
the funeral with her husband.
The dignitaries arrived by helicopter and the chief minister offered
a few words of support to Munni. She also gave her a cheque. Months
later, Munni said, women in the village would comment that she had
got a house and a television after her husband died. This hurt her,
Munni said. She would rather have her husband back.
I asked Munni if she knew how her husband was killed. He was hiding
near a hill with an officer, she said. They were being shot at and he
was hurt in the right arm. The officer said to him that they should
get medical aid but Hardeo said that he was okay. Munni said, "After
two-three hours, he began to suffer a bit".
Four men from his regiment carried Hardeo to the place where medical
aid was available. He asked for a drink of water. He told them about
his family and then he said that he would not live.
Correspondents
When Munni had finished speaking, I stayed silent. She had kept her
head bent and hardly ever looked at me when she spoke. I had noticed
that the parting in her hair was bare. As is customary for a widow,
there was no sindoor in the parting. When I asked her what was it
that Hardeo wrote most often to her in his letters, she quietly got
up and walked out of the room. When she came back, she had a few
letters in her hand.
The first letter I read was actually written not by Hardeo but by
Munni herself. It was in broken Hindi, and began "My dear husband
..." The other two letters had been written by Hardeo and they were
dated about eight-nine months before his death. They inquired about
Munni's health and then instructed her to take care of the children.
Both were addressed "Dear mother of Manisha ...". Manisha was their
elder daughter.
Hardeo signed his name in English with some flourish. That signature
and the address were the only words he wrote in English. I reopened
Munni's letter. I was embarrassed to read it in front of her, but I
went ahead anyway. I thought that her way of addressing Hardeo was
much more playful. "Priya Patiji, Namaste, Namaste". (Dear Husband,
my greetings, my greetings.)
Her letter mentioned that Hardeo had been a more regular
correspondent; she had simply not had the time to write to him more
frequently. Manisha was staying at her maternal uncle's house; she
was attending school in Jehanabad town. Munni wanted Hardeo to come
home for the chatth festival, and if he got leave, he was to inform
her in advance.
Munni had also written, "What else can I write? You know what a
family is like. And for a wife it is the husband who gives happiness.
The wife's happiness is not there without you. What can I do when
this is written in my fate?" Then there was mention of the potatoes
that had been harvested, and the rice that had been threshed. There
was mention of loneliness here but also a hint about some tension in
the wider family. I thought of one of Hardeo's letter, in which he
had scribbled in the postscript, "Do not fret too much and whatever
people might say or do in the house, you should not utter a word in
response. Okay. Ta-ta".
"You have taught young men that it is not only Kargil but also Lahore
where the Indian tricolour will fly"
Hardeo's younger brother, Vinod, a pleasant, unemployed man, had come
and sat down on the ground near me. He was holding a yellow sheet of
paper in his hand. When he gave it to me, I saw that it was a rather
bombastically worded tribute to Hardeo on his first death anniversary
observed only a few months earlier. The tribute ended with a
declaration in Hindi: "By being a soldier and by assuming command,
you have taught the young men of your village that it is not only
Kargil and Kashmir but also Lahore and Islamabad where the Indian
tricolour will fly. For the peace of your soul, the District
Development Forum takes this solemn oath".
Tea and sweets had been brought for me on a small stainless steel
tray. I said to Munni that I would quickly drink the tea and leave.
She brought me an album of photographs. There were only a handful of
pictures in the book. A few of them showed Hardeo in Somalia, and in
one picture he was standing in front of a temple in Bhutan.
There were photographs from the funeral, including one of Hardeo's
body washed and laid out on the ground with a brown cloth wrapped
around the torso. The hands of the villagers were propping up the
head and shoulders for the photograph.
There was one picture of Hardeo and Munni together. It had been taken
during their happier days. It said "Prabhat Studio" in the bottom
corner. Munni was difficult to recognise in the photograph: she wore
her hair open on the side, and her clothes were new and bright. She
appeared amused as she looked at the camera. I asked Munni if I could
take a picture of her. She solemnly took down the framed photograph
of Hardeo in Somalia, and then posed for me with her eyes fixed on
the ground between us.
I wanted to ask Munni something before I left. I asked her if
she would have anything to say to a woman in Pakistan who was also a
war widow like her. Munni said, "Why should I say anything to the one
who took away my husband?"
"But the women, the widows, they were not fighting. They did not take
away Hardeo", I said. But Munni shook her head. She would not relent.
Maybe she was right, maybe she was not.
Maybe the fault lay in my fantasies. I was dreaming of a dialogue
between all those who had suffered from war's injustice. I still hold
on to that dream. I cannot help feeling that Munni was the war's
double victim. She had lost her husband, and she had lost a link to
the broader world which shared her suffering.
As I look at the television screen today - from where all signs of
life have been banished, as if there were no human beings in Iraq - I
wonder whether a woman sitting afraid in Baghdad knows that there is
another woman, in a small town in suburban America, shedding tears
for her. It is not much, but it would take away, for a moment, the
horrible isolation we all feel amidst this violence.
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